I never make New Year's Resolutions, especially on Christmas Eve...
However upon much reflection and many a struggle, and the innate desire to finish this novel, I have come to the dark realization that I must continue writing.
A Sailor and an Inn, first a storm of words thrown together in anguish and hurt, transformed into a poem and now the makings of a novel, has been laundering over me these past months that I've been intentionally avoiding it.
So why am I writing this post? Basically it is a Self Resolution that I will stop procrastinating this novel. When I was writing it, I found myself back in that dark chamber, with no way out, an aura of desperation mixed with the perfect amount of depression. I produced great work, but it scared me. I felt myself close off from all emotion, all people and work. I didn't care to do anything but write. And though that sounds like the perfect writing situation, it took a tole on my mental health, bringing me back to the darkness.
But then I realized that is exactly the situation writers go through on a daily basis, putting themselves into the very environment in which they are creating, so as to experience their mind for themselves.
So I encourage you, fellow writers, do not let this keep you from writing. It is a dark experience, but ultimately it will open your eyes to see the realness of this world. You will come out of it, and with this coming you will have a new piece of work, one which you personally have lived.
I realize this just came off really dark, and I am not trying to make it seem that way, simply I just want to say that emotions should not keep you from writing. The words build up and flood your head, whether you recognize your work or not, it is in your head creating chaos. And it is your responsibility to your mental sanity to push through and write the damn words down.
